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really dunno how i feel now.. numb?
Wednesday, February 16, 2005 - 10:44 AM

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talked to mom on the phone coz i couldnt answer her call when she called last night. feel a bit numb now. talkin to mom calmed me down a bit. she told me to think of my future instead of keep thinking of goin home. she said being away frm home is only a temporary thing. after 3 to 4 yrs i will b returning back with a good future ahead. i know she is worried abt my future and at the same time dun wan me to suffer here. so all she can now is to calm me down and talk me into believing dat i can endure this period of being away frm home. feel sort of numb to my sadness now. but i seemed to b nt feelin anything. nt cold. nt hungry. nt bored. nt lonely. i just feel like im a dead person.